Damn

Here I am

Before this

Catastrophic event

I know

that I’ve just lost

My beloved aunt

and here she is before me…

Yet why

Does my heart

still feel cold

why are my eyes

still pained?

Why do I feel

emotionally disconnected

from this occurring despair…

Have I aways

Been this

Emotionally distant,

distracted,

and crippled?

Or is it the trauma

from that day

back in kindergarten,

that has left my eyes

in a drought or tears?

And my heart

In a desert of emotions

And my face

beyond a vacuum

Of expressions…

For now, I guess

I’ll never know

What loving again

Or losing a loved one again

truly feels like

Since I now fear

that the psychopath in me

will soon strike again

I’m sorry aunt

But the sirens outside

Can’t Save me?

For the heartbeat inside me

is not acquainted

to this pain within…

Since losing you right now

cannot change the fact

that you lost me back then

when you signed a pact

in silence

Against your conscience

when you watched me being abused

and remained not amused

Whilst seemingly doing

Nothing about it