Damn
Here I am
Before this
Catastrophic event
I know
that I’ve just lost
My beloved aunt
and here she is before me…
Yet why
Does my heart
still feel cold
why are my eyes
still pained?
Why do I feel
emotionally disconnected
from this occurring despair…
Have I aways
Been this
Emotionally distant,
distracted,
and crippled?
Or is it the trauma
from that day
back in kindergarten,
that has left my eyes
in a drought or tears?
And my heart
In a desert of emotions
And my face
beyond a vacuum
Of expressions…
For now, I guess
I’ll never know
What loving again
Or losing a loved one again
truly feels like
Since I now fear
that the psychopath in me
will soon strike again
I’m sorry aunt
But the sirens outside
Can’t Save me?
For the heartbeat inside me
is not acquainted
to this pain within…
Since losing you right now
cannot change the fact
that you lost me back then
when you signed a pact
in silence
Against your conscience
when you watched me being abused
and remained not amused
Whilst seemingly doing
Nothing about it