What did you expect?

You thought you will find me were I was?

Crying, crawling and

breaking glasses?

Leaning behind my door,

Wanting answers that I know exactly

that I wouldn’t get?

Thinking about how loving you

left me with broken pieces,

pain and a greater lesson I was never ready to learn.

Wait, you thought shedding tears for you meant I was desperate for you?

I might have given you everything that you needed,

Like the body I considered precious and holy,

Like the time I could have used to enjoy my sleep and playing my favourite games.

I might have given you that bombastic smile that you managed to break without hesitation,

But that didn’t mean you had the right to proceed with stabing my poor heart,

The one you stole,

with a promise of loving, protecting and nurturing it.

The one you broke with what you called friends,

Friends that substituted the mark of love I pasted in your heart.

Friends that made you smile more than I did.

Friends that blew you kissed, in my presence.

While I lied on my bed, solving puzzles with tears that I wiped with my pillow,

The one that comforted me in times of need.

Tell me, when you posted that girl that day you thought I was blinded by your love and wouldn’t see?

You thought what you did behind the scenes would not be known?

You thought I was a robot and pain wasn’t

my thing hah?

That my silence meant ‘Yes baba proceed’?

You never seize to surprise me.

You though I would stay?

Yes, you are only left with feathers,

The bird is gone.

Now don’t tell me the same old tale you used to preach in my ears.

what’s the tittle again, ‘I love you’?

Well, I know that one,

It’s the one full of lies and con-artists,

the ones born with silver-tongues.

Tell me something new,

Because where I am,

I live in harmony.