With much needed respect I ask for your permission.

To you, the one who turned me down but truly meant something.

It not that I’m mad at you or anything.

Truthful I don’t believe I could ever be.

I just wish to let you know that everytime we cross paths,

I’ll turn and walk back to the direction I came. 

I will burry my head in the ground like an ostrich, until you are out of sight.

I will dig in trash bags and wander in them, until your scent is swallowed by the wind. 

On your sight, I’ll poke my eyes and ears with a stick until I can no longer see,

And my eardrums burst, and I became deaf.

All so not to hear your voice nor your whispers through the gossiping wind..

On the sight of your friends my terrible voice will I’ll sing loud,so not to hear your name. 

Forgive me, for don’t want to make you feel guilty or sad.

For I don’t believe that’ll put joy in me,

nor do I believe it will make me proud. 

But I’ll do all this to preserve the dam that drips in my heart when I’m in your presence and in the crowd,

But pour when I’m in bed and alone at night.

Forgive me for I don’t plan to paint you as a villain. 

But I aim to let you know that you are the thin line between my sane and insanity. 

You are the joy most find in the bottom of a whiskey bottle. 

With all that said it is only fair to say I belong here.

For I don’t deserve to step on the blessed ground you once stepped before.

For I fear that I’ll stain and sully your work.

After all it’s what I deserve for cheating.