He said I was an eight,
A solid eight.
That’s not bad right?
An eight is still an A
still an Ace and if that’s the case
I should appreciate.
He said sometimes I can be an eight point nine
those are the days I look really fine,
the days where I change my smile
adjusted my style
bleached my skin
was extra clean
a picture-perfect queen.
As my mother’s words rang from within
like a catchy rhythm
Echoing, mtanami you are so beautiful.
Mama, I thought so too,
but it turns out you and I were singing the wrong tune.
You see, I’m beauty without the full
cause I’m not the full package
and no, the boy didn’t do too much damage
he simply called me an eight
so, I shouldn’t act desperate
and yet,
I believed his lies
so, I glanced at my thighs and asked,
“Why do you wobble so much?”
So much after a mere touch,
asked my shoulders why they slouch
And with tears in my eyes,
I turned to the One from above,
asked for more,
“Lord anything to keep my body from being such a bore
even if it’s beyond my stage
so, what if it fills mother with rage?
She doesn’t understand our age!”
But the Lord looked at my shame
filled with pain
wondering if His words were in vain
And in disdain He said I was made in His image
so, I need not knowledge from boys who were not sage
nor saved
He said,
“Daughter, you are my masterpiece
so, shouldn’t I be the only master you seek to please?”