i guess I didn’t drink enough pills

or find a long enough rope

I didn’t find a perfect position on the roof

I didn’t have a sharp enough knife

No

not to take my life

just to play around

I didn’t have a gun

I’m always surrounded by people but never had enough fun

I didn’t have the courage to jump

and I didn’t have strong enough lungs

to smoke the drugs

I didn’t have a strong enough heart

to let the memories go

Death…friend or foe

I’ll never know