I’m always so drawn to you.

There are these feelings I can’t seem

To explain.

You give me these urges that take over

My brain.

You push me into the hands of pornography.

In search of this one thing that I don’t know

What it is…

You drive me into fantasies of taboo

You have me walking a fine line

Between being a voyeur and a peeping Tom.

Can’t stop this insatiable lewdness.

You have me imagining taking part in

BDSM.

You have directed me on this path,

Pulled in by sexual gratification.

You have planted this seed in me,

Clothing has become my new fixation.

You sometimes make me take reckless

Decisions,

You make me feel like life without you

Everything would be mundane.

You cause me to make justifications

For you

Or maybe it’s just my imagination

I get this overwhelming feeling

Everytime I think of touching

A lover’s flesh;

My hands on her thighs.

My mouth on her lips.

My hands on her waist, pulling her

Closer.

Nibbling on her neck.

Lay her on her back.

Kiss her from her toes to her head,

Then go back down again.

And caress her inner thighs.

That’s my high!

You’ve driven me to what I believe

Is clinically, termed, ‘Sex Addiction.’

Or maybe I’m just a porn addict.

You have me saying that, “It’s not like

I can’t stop!”

I’m human and my sex drive is

Just largeish that’s all.

You make me question myself too

Much lately.

Maybe I’m not normal!?

I guess, you’ve made me believe there

Isn’t anything wrong here with me

I’m just – human!

It is always that feeling that I need

To get that release.

In order for me to be free.

Sex, sex – SEX,

You’re always on my mind.

You have found ways to waste

My time.

Thinking of who’s going to be

In my bed next.