Knock knock knock,
Who’s there?
Oh it’s me again,
I am sorry to bother you
In your happiest moment.
I felt lonely
But I am in denial.
What I do is to survive,
When I am around jolly vibes.
“If you can’t beat them, join them”
I face my fears all alone,
My failure’s chant my name.
Simplicity I am living zombie
My mind is dark,
My heart is just failing to love.
Not only myself but
People around me.
A stranger once came
And told me they love me
Just like a love sick puppy I fell for it.
Jasmine was my forever yena
Only to found out, it’s not genuine.
What did I do wrong?
My genuine love was never enough?
I am not good enough to receive the
Love that I’m giving.
When my heart was about
To trust even embrace genuine love again.
My very own Lulu, smashed my
Poor heart from coma.
Why can’t I deserve infinite love?
Is it because I am fool?
Fool enough to trust
Real quick, and love beyond.
Knock knock knock,
It’s me again,
I feel like a zombie
And my mind,
My heart,
My soul,
Are being attacked by
colossal of melancholy.
I am slowly dying
From the inside.
If only I could numb
The pain away, but I’ve been told
“Pain is what makes you grow”.
Then how about feeling
Useless, nothing, low-spirited?
I just smile to the world as if
Nothing is going on,
Meanwhile I am daunted
In fact, I am caught up miserably
So miserable that I can’t
Even believe there’s a silver lining.
Knock knock knock,
I am trap with morose
My naam is Shady and
My hart is steeds in pyn.