Those days are gone

Those days whereby I felt happy

And stressfree

And enjoyed my life

Now it’s just study study

If not study is stress

I don’t know the direction to life anymore

It’s messed up and am a mess

My feelings are no longer there anymore

Am emotionally damaged

From all the childhood trauma

All the heartache

Am wondering can I still love

Am I even worthy of love

Sometimes I wonder if am serving my purpose to life

And if I really belong here

The world is a tough place.

Where you have to lose and win

Where you don’t always get what you want

Where there’s criticism everywhere

Am in my sad girl era

An era every teen or person goes through

When you feel like giving up and letting it be

But the pain is just hard to bare

Suffering for others sins

And owning up to your mistakes

Love has never been in my favour

I’m starting to believe that am just not made for love.

But I guess am still young and there’s many opportunities waiting for me out there

Many parts of the world waiting for me to explore them

And many hearts waiting to be inspired by me

So I’ll catch flights and not feelings

Cause I wanna be my own woman

Independent and strong

I wanna be remembered

But in this painful world

You gotta work hard for what you want

Cause nothing is for free even love is bought nowadays.