Those days are gone
Those days whereby I felt happy
And stressfree
And enjoyed my life
Now it’s just study study
If not study is stress
I don’t know the direction to life anymore
It’s messed up and am a mess
My feelings are no longer there anymore
Am emotionally damaged
From all the childhood trauma
All the heartache
Am wondering can I still love
Am I even worthy of love
Sometimes I wonder if am serving my purpose to life
And if I really belong here
The world is a tough place.
Where you have to lose and win
Where you don’t always get what you want
Where there’s criticism everywhere
Am in my sad girl era
An era every teen or person goes through
When you feel like giving up and letting it be
But the pain is just hard to bare
Suffering for others sins
And owning up to your mistakes
Love has never been in my favour
I’m starting to believe that am just not made for love.
But I guess am still young and there’s many opportunities waiting for me out there
Many parts of the world waiting for me to explore them
And many hearts waiting to be inspired by me
So I’ll catch flights and not feelings
Cause I wanna be my own woman
Independent and strong
I wanna be remembered
But in this painful world
You gotta work hard for what you want
Cause nothing is for free even love is bought nowadays.