Sitting here listening to my heartbeat, beating fast

Which makes it so hard to control my breathing rate

Am boiling inside.

That’s how the rate of my anger

Which after comes with dizziness

How I wish this could stop

But keeps recurring again and again

Listening to music just push down tears

Well don’t I deserve peace of mind

I hate fighting with this inner self

Trying to reason with every small question I get

Trying to reason why I still deserve to live,

Even though I still see how am failing us,

Us , inner self and me

How inner self protested ,also stating how tired