My life is messed up

I don’t know what to do anymore

Do I still have a place on earth?

My life is worse than before

I know there’s no success without suffering

But I suffered a lot

Since this year started

I have been nothing but depressed

I even don’t know what it is to be happy!

I don’t know if I survive the pain any longer

Having to bear it for the past few months has been pain.

I don’t know if I still belong here.

I don’t feel important

Not Worthy

I know I have sinned

But I realised my sins and prayed for forgiveness

But I don’t know any more

All I can say is God please forgive me for my sins

It’s now that I see that I’m not who I thought I was.

But I’ll try to change, but it feels to me like it’s too late.