Time I spent

Cannot be reversed

I never spent it well

I’m glued to the view forever

Who cared about my view

Every opinion I suggest

Will be wiped off like it has never been said

Ask me that I am fine

I’m having downs, no longer ups

I sat down and I faced the wall

They say that walls have ears

I don’t want to talk right now

So I decide to go to my bed

Where I will hold my pillow tight and cry

Every time I wake up, I wink to confirm that I’m still alive

Every second I take a step, I always check my mood

When I’m angry, I just control my breath

I think I’m fine, I’m ready to go

It feels better for me to stay in dark

But someone will disturb the darkness

Let me close my eyes, my eyes are my camera

They saw and they interacted with my heart

Now I’m waiting for the precipitation

To wash all my past away

Now I’m left with scars that have stitches

I’m afraid to remove the stitches

Cause the scars are still widely open

And once I remove them I’m dead

My life was meant to be easy

But when I arrived

I realised that it was already planned

I still have to fix their mistakes

Before I fix mine

Let me be positive

Let me start to make things possible

Although my energy is drained

It feels like it is forced

It’s just that I don’t have time

So the time that I will spend

Will put a smile on my face

And let my mouth speak

And say, I’m fine