Time I spent
Cannot be reversed
I never spent it well
I’m glued to the view forever
Who cared about my view
Every opinion I suggest
Will be wiped off like it has never been said
Ask me that I am fine
I’m having downs, no longer ups
I sat down and I faced the wall
They say that walls have ears
I don’t want to talk right now
So I decide to go to my bed
Where I will hold my pillow tight and cry
Every time I wake up, I wink to confirm that I’m still alive
Every second I take a step, I always check my mood
When I’m angry, I just control my breath
I think I’m fine, I’m ready to go
It feels better for me to stay in dark
But someone will disturb the darkness
Let me close my eyes, my eyes are my camera
They saw and they interacted with my heart
Now I’m waiting for the precipitation
To wash all my past away
Now I’m left with scars that have stitches
I’m afraid to remove the stitches
Cause the scars are still widely open
And once I remove them I’m dead
My life was meant to be easy
But when I arrived
I realised that it was already planned
I still have to fix their mistakes
Before I fix mine
Let me be positive
Let me start to make things possible
Although my energy is drained
It feels like it is forced
It’s just that I don’t have time
So the time that I will spend
Will put a smile on my face
And let my mouth speak
And say, I’m fine