I desire for so many things and now I have to deal with the fact that I may never get the chance again and if I did, I don’t know what I’d do.

I dont know what else I could say, perhaps do because I am so nervous. But I know that with you fear is not a plus and I don’t know what else I could do to make you somehow understand.

I never communicate to you in person about these tormenting feelings, so there are few ways of me being able to speak to you.

Guess I have no choice but to try and explain it as if I was talking with you.

Please read my blog and let me know if you understand my thoughts and reasons. My fear is the fact that you might not be able to comprehend my emotional history, and scares me.