I hurt her.
Buried her deep under fear
I told her I loved her
Made her believe my words were sincere
Made sure I got to seek deep within her
Knew that what she longed for was a healer.
And I became him
It was worse when I’d had a beer
The feelings would get crazier.
Flashbacks of my father beating Her,
Felt like I finally overpowered him.
At night I held her in my arms,
And I kissed her as she silently cried
I promised us that I’d never cause her harm
Yet, I continued to pull her apart
He caused it, my wretched heart,
And She let Him kill Her inside
Not knowing in me, it left a scar,
I lived my whole life trying to hide
Because I was slowly,
becoming,
Him.
And I am.
I could’ve been a better man.
I could’ve chosen a better path.
From my calling, I could’ve run.
Because when He did it, Her pain was felt.
And now the mirror shows me him.
I see my mother in her bruised eyes.
I chose to become the marking point of a cycle’s restart.
Now I’m living my life regretfully, till I die behind bars.