I have abandoned my studies,

Goals and career that I made,

I have burnt down a diary book

Where I wrote my resolutions,

It’s not like I don’t want 

A better life 

And break chains of poverty

I am just exhausted 

From everything

I’m just exhausted from keeping

Trying and trying again

Only to receive failures

And face a mental breakdown

Not a change

It’s not like I’m negative

I’ve been positive

You know how hard days

Work

Even though when it was

Full of light

But the shadow won’t stop 

Creeping in until it

Becomes fully dark

I know that whenever

I do something beneficial

Later on, I lose hope and leave it

It’s not like I want to be 

A beggar for my entire life

I’m just exhausted from everything

My strength is sapped out 

By setback

All that is left now is to crawl like

A baby 

Seeking someone to carry me on

I know I have wasted my life

And Time

Roving around the corners

Alone hiding from reality

It’s not like I never wanted 

To chase after my dreams

It was fear and anxiety 

That caged me and made 

Be folly