I am so sorry, but I cannot love you better

This is a painful sentence with powerful nine words

I ever had to utter truthfully

To the one I was convinced that he could love me better

I wanted to love him

Yes, he was enough, loving and supportive

He was a friend, a mentor and a man I always dreamt of

But my past, my flaws and my painful experiences couldn’t let me love him

I knew something in me was missing

Like it has always been

I was truthfully missing a passionate love in me

This kind of love is important to me

And was supposed to be given to me so that I could preach.