i truly can’t understand

i absolutely don’t get it

is there anyone who knows

is there someone to fill me with details

of how actually did I?

i always wondered

and always have faith

hoping that you’ll see things from my view

praying you’ll one day some how get it

always suffering from seeing you giving up

i actually don’t know how did I?

i remember us bieng totally strangers

the day we firstly met

remember how you smiled at me

remeber that school picnic we had

you fastly developed feelings for me

you couldn’t help but stalking me

remember I once asked you

‘Are you stalking me?’

never realising I also catch infatuation for you

time passed,days passed and months passed

you stopped giving me your attention

you stopped stalking at me

you stopped starring at my so called cute face

i felt like you didn’t care

i felt like you done with me

i remember making Facebook fake account

i recall my self sending you a text

trying to get your attention

i then asked ‘why do we hardly talk to each other?’

your answer was simple as ‘I have a crush on you MaMtshaLie’

you left me surprised but still happy

you already cleared your air

but then the problem lied on me

i told you I wasn’t ready for relationships

i faced you and said we can be friends

knowing exactly that Im feeling the exact way for you

i hid it until now

i still can’t just get over the fact that i have a crush on you

i still asked my heart ‘HOW DID I?’ never express my feelings for so long

How did I managed to keep this secret for so long

i think it’s now the right time to tell you the truth

even knowing that you’re maybe moved on

but i really have to cause I can’t keep asking myself

HOW DID I?anymore.