I used stay awake awaiting this day and time
My knees on the floor praying, asking and
Reminding God of my dreams
Years went by,
And I kept falling on my knees
With every passing year I aged
Further away they went
Yet I never lost faith
But the older I got
The distance between me and my goals grew
I used to sniff weed till I passed out
I’d drink till I blacked out
But when it hits this time I’m wide awake
Remembering the promises I made
Dreams I had wished to birth
Goals I wanted to score
Everything changed,
I thought at least I’d be trying now…
Oh all I ever wanted I asked the universe
At the time and day I came
But as for tonight I wonder,
“Did my Ancestors, the Universe and God conspire to bring me here to just dream and have unrealistic goals?”
Every birthday is a reminder of all I ever wanted to be
A reminder set to remind me of how I failed
I guess from now going forth
I’ll just be what I never wanted to be,
Normal guy working for a living.
I guess it’s time,
Happy Birthday To Myself