Oh,how I envy happy people.

How I wish I could one day wake up feeling happy.

Genuine happiness,

Like a small child getting a lollipop 🍭

Or a a small child seeing their favourite person.

Oh,how I wonder how it feels like to be happy..

Does your heart melt ?

Do your eyes sparkle?

Does it feel like you followed by a rainbow?

Instead of a dark heavily raining clouds ?

Do you feel like you are on the sky with pink clouds and a garden full of flowers?

Instead of being lost in the dark endless sea that has no beginning nor end ?

Huh ?

Does it feel like you swimming in a pool of love and laughter?

Instead of drowning with agony ,anguish and

hatred ?

How does it feel inside ?

Cause I feel Sad.

Do you wanna to know how it feels like to be sad ?

It feels Grey.

You just exist,

No dreams nor hope

It’s like a long night that doesn’t seem to end..

You just lie in bed and cry,

And you just looking for reasons to stay alive.

Feeling lost,alone and broken.

And you don’t how to fix yourself,

So you just be..

Oh, how I envy happiness…