I wish I could tell you that I’m not OK

Sometimes, I wish I hadn’t built these walls

I wish I could stop this behavior of mine

Of withholding love

I wish somehow I could make you understand

That I never meant to make you feel rejected or unimportant.

Sometimes I don’t understand it myself

I don’t know where I got this inability

Of not being able to show my loving and vulnerable side

I’m stuck

I have these feelings I want to share

But every time I listen to them

I feel like I’m being fake

My feelings for you are too deep

But I don’t want you to know them

I don’t want you to act differently

I know how much you cherish me

I never say it enough, but know this

I appreciate you.