Why the people we always work to keep; never stay?? Somebody once asked and I didn’t understand but trust me now I do.I was just a nine year old kid and very stupid worst of all, it was my birthday or I can say our birthday and my friend deathday.The special Special day of my life just turned out to be worst of all. It was on the 29th DECEMBER 2014 the time was 08h46 early in the morning. She was my friend, a best one and we were one too. The bond that I shared with her, it so adorable and fulffing Her name was GIFT..ohh well my gift ,we grew up together,we even share the same dream of being the best surgeon in the country, trust me all we wanted to do was to save life’s but that day I failed to save her life. Am I still gonna be the light in everyone’s lives. It was a great morning we were just crossing the big road…and it was just two innocent girls celebrating life, am the one who convinced her to go with me.In a blink of an eye she was hit by a car..!! After seconds later..she was lying on a pool of blood…!! Minutes later she was no more..!! Hours later everyone was in tears because of me..!! Few days later..they were peparing her funeral…!! And yet after so many years am crumbling down. I didn’t lost a friend but I lost my place in the community because after your death your parents wanted to skin me alive. Mama said I shall not cry and yeah I know my friend wouldn’t want to see me in this state. I wish she can come back and smile again. It doesn’t matter now because all I have left now it’s her screams on my mind and horrible flashbacks . I have lost a big part of me. If I knew better I would say that am really sorry to your family but I know that they don’t even want to see my face. Depression became my best friend after she passed away and yes who will I be ..without Anxiety . I know what happened was bound to happen but what about the guilty conscience in my heart. I am so hurted and hated in this young age. All I do best is to cry everyday. Who was I ?? So many pain in life and am just all alone . Sangomas, Prophets and even Pastors failed to take the pain in my heart. It is hard for me to keep up with this pain. I just wish that one day I could sit down your mom and explain what really went down that day. I can’t even make friends now. I wish we can sit down and tell all the sad stories of our life’s. I’ve lost you forever but I say please REST IN PEACE..I’LL KEEP ON GOING FOR OUR DREAM.