I know the pain of not being supported
The pain of not having someone to hold
And support you.
The pain of wishing for someone to
Just care for you, just once in your life
The pain of having a bleeding heart and
The pain of feeling lonely and empty inside.
When I look back and see the younger me,
I wish I could warn myself.
Encourage me to never give up.
Because the older me is starting to give up.
I’m giving up on myself and life
But with a little bit of a , ray of hope
I still hope for the best for me.
I encourage myself even though I have
This negativity in me.
A seed that was planted in me ages ago
and now it has started growing like a tumour in my mind.
A rose with black petals.
If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.