My beautiful Heart 

Dear my beautiful heart! What happened to you? I’m in the verge of finding you! I used to know you! but these days you’ve changed and I no longer know you anymore!

You’re so bitter and strange! You’re like a stranger living in my house! I feel lost and confused! I no longer feel good with you! You’re so heavy and depressed!

Sometimes you give me this weird feelings that I cannot chase away! I wish I could be far away from you! I no longer feel good about myself! Sometimes I feel like I can just end my life by myself!

Dear my beautiful heart! What happened to you? We used to laugh and cherish small things! But now we complain and cry about small things! I don’t know what wrong with you! I know there’s something wrong with you!

You used to be my strength! in my darkest hour But now you’re my weakness! And it’s hard to wake up and take a shower! Since you make me feel hopeless and useless! 

You no longer pump blood but stress, depression! and confusion!. What happened to our friendly sessions, discussions and solutions? You no longer think for ourselves but for yourself!

Dear my beautiful heart! What happened to you? Are you still with me? I’m like an empty vessel! There’s emptiness in my heart! I no longer feel your good presence anymore! I don’t want to cry and complain anymore! I don’t wanna sit and overthink anymore! 

By Alex ( Umbhali ongadumile)