My entire life, I have never felt love. I am a person who loves to read and to watch movies. When I would see a happy family I would wish that that was me. Unfortunately, that’s never going to happen to me.

I grew up raised by my martenal grandmother since I was 2. Well, surprisingly both my parents are alive and well. My mother is in her 40s and I’m not sure about dad but I think he is in his late 40s. They were both married traditionally but they had to break up due to certain circumstances. That is for another day. When they separated , my mother left me and married another man who is by the way deceased. My dad did not on the other side.

Sometimes I feel like they do love but most of the time I doubt that. I don’t even know who is the worst. My mother barely calls me to ask how I am. She calls when she has to speak to granny and she would just say hello and then bye. Other times I think maybe it’s because she is maybe shy or she doesn’t know how to show love and care. I really dk. My father has never sent even a R500 to me to say ‘buy whatever you need’ or ‘buy some groceries ‘. He just gives me maybe a R200 and say it’s the pocket money for the entire year. Funny right! Or every December he buys us clothes,me and my brother from another mother. What really makes me so sad is that he doesn’t even know my birthday but every year he call my brother to wish him a birthday and my partenal grandma would make some cakes and drinks and it would be celebrated. Well dear reader , there are lots of things I would love to tell you but I will spare you with my miserable life.

My point is I wish to experience love at least from my parents. To tell you honestly,I’m 16 and I have never dated cause a part of me is scared to love or be loved because I’m scared of being hurt. Maybe one day I’m gonna accept love and I wanna make sure that I give my future children full love and support. That’s my life story.

Tell me what is going on on your life too.