If there’s anything I really, really hate is being stood up, especially after spending hours preparing for that moment. I was just trying to be a ‘good daughter’, so I decided that it would be a nice thing that when mom arrived on Sunday I must’ve prepared something for her. It was mother’s day after all. I mean I hardly ever tell her how much I appreciate her; this was a good chance, a perfect opportunity. I even managed to get the ‘rebellious Sim’ to help me.

But did she even pitch? No. And what makes it even worse; she didn’t even tell us that she was not coming. So you can imagine how restless Sim was – asking me why I was keeping him ‘captive’, he wanted to go to his friends.

I had to call mom and ask her what was keeping her, and guess what… she is not coming. That’s it. No explanation, nothing at all. She just ‘has things to finalise that side’, and that’s all she is willing to say.

It’s frustratingly disappointing, just that one day when one tries to do something good and all her efforts go to waste. I did not even have the appetite to eat the food anymore. Sim couldn’t wait to leave; well I also had no reason to keep him anymore. He was so disappointed.

“I see,” that’s all he said when I told him that all our efforts were in vain. I guess this is how things are meant to be.

Uhg… I was so pissed that when I sent her a BBM wishing her well, I had already had one too many. I said some things and she said some things, and I said some things and as a grownup – the only sober one at that time, she tried to shut it down.

I said one more thing to vent. And now we aren’t speaking. I tried calling but she won’t pick up. I don’t know when she is coming back,, or if she is coming back.

What if I have been abandoned with child? My parents wouldn’t do that to me, would they?

ZZ xxx

Dish it: What did you do for your mother?

The Diary of Zinzi Zwane