“Lo! Londiwe!” That was Sandile yelling at me.

I had earphones in my ears but nothing was playing – truth is I was ignoring him. Why? I have no idea. He yelled and gave up. I was no longer answering his calls, nor was I responding to the messages he sent. You can’t serve two kings at once, but as for me I was pleasing the wrong one instead.

I received a message from 144, oh yes, a voice message. I opened it.

“Yaz, Londiwe I really don’t know what is happening lana… I mean I am trying to be the good boyfriend but it seems like I am not trying enough for you. I love you and I have shown you that. Baby, please tell me what I am not doing right and I’ll fix it. You are my er’thang Ngiyak’thanda va!”

I had tears in my eyes to think that the poor guy did nothing to me. I am the one who was supposed to apologise. I walked to class very sad and Nthabi asked me what was wrong. I gave her my phone to listen to the voice message. After listening she said, “Arg mxm, how typical!”

She told me to move away from him, that that’s what most players do; then she deleted it. My heart was so broken. I was crying heavily inside but I couldn’t show it because I was keeping Nthabi happy. Yes, I know; call me dumb I deserve it.

I was in my room studying then I picked up my phone and convinced myself that I was going to call Sandile. I missed him terribly. Oh well it won’t hurt. I called him. It rang once and he answered. Before I could even speak he said, “Baby, you don’t know how excited I am to hear from you. I thought I would never hear from you. Unjani?” (How are you?).

It melted my heart to hear him say that.

“Hey babe, I am so happy to hear your voice… I miss you… Otherwise I am very good wena?”

I heard him inhale heavily through the phone.

“You don’t know how relieved I am…If you are good then I am great,” he said with a sweet voice. God what had I done to deserve him! I dropped a tear; it really broke my heart. I never believed that really true love existed.
“Are you there?” he asked, since I took long to respond. “Baby, tell me what’s wrong. Is it me? I’ll fix it if it’s me. Just tell me what you want me to do. I don’t want to annoy you.”

I don’t know what got into me but I snapped at him.

“Yaz’ Sandile, you should really stop acting all innocent on me because I know your type,” like I said, I really don’t know what got into me.

“Lo, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I am not what you think I am,” he said that with a shaky voice.
“Yaz’ yini wena neh I don’t play with players, it’s over futhi.” I said then I hung up. He tried calling me back and I didn’t answer.

I love Sandile so much and I regret everything. I need him in my life. I love him. I can’t go on without him. But I guess I hurt him to a point whereby he quit the whole dating game.

The next day I saw Sandile and I was going to pass near him. What am I going to do? I thought. Well I am going to pass and I know he is going to try talking to me and I am going to ignore him. Oh yes, plus Nthabi was looking at me so she was going to witness it. These were the kind of trash thoughts I had in my mind! But then my mind was made up so I did what I said. I walked past him but he didn’t say even a single word. In fact he stood up and walked in the opposite direction.

You could see that this person was pained from the inside out. Just after that happened, Nthabi came running to me and asked with extreme excitement, “Are you guys done?”

I couldn’t hold it but dropped a tear. She told me to be strong and that anyways we didn’t look good together. She gave me a pat on my shoulder and walked away. I turned to look at Sandile, he had his earphones in as he walked fast to take a turn to the cafeteria. It felt like someone took a blade out of my heart. I walked to class but I wasn’t really focussing on anything. I was thinking about Sandile.

I walked out last in class; I was feeling so down. As I turned to my left, I saw Mandy, from the Pussycats, standing with Sandile. As I came she saw me and she started holding Sandile, trying to spite me, but Sandile pushed her away and walked away from her. Nthabiseng was with the other Pussycats. They all turned and gave me an ugly stare; even Nthabiseng. I was so hurt that I ran home and cried in my room. I wanted to call Sandile and just talk to him and hear his voice so I decided to call him. It rang twice and he picked up but didn’t say a word.
“Hey, how are you?” I said with a shaky voice.

‘Hello, this is Sthe, Sandile doesn’t want to talk to you. Please understand and never call him again, bye.” then he hung up. I cried my lungs out.

I wore shades to school so that nobody noticed that I was crying and my eyes were puffy and swollen. Nthabiseng was not talking to me; she didn’t even look at me. As I passed the library I passed a group of girls and all of them started to laugh at me. Then I heard one of them saying, “What happened to their true love?” And then they laughed so hard.

I just passed them like I heard nothing.

Well I am now everyone’s laughing stock. Nthabiseng isn’t my friend anymore and I broke up with Sandile; I guess my life is over. Because I was not concentrating on where I was going I bumped into someone and all the books I had in my hands fell and I went down with them. As I lifted my eyes I saw that I had bumped into Sandile. He helped me up and gave me all my books, then smiled at me and walked past me without saying anything. I turned slowly to look at him walking away but he didn’t turn; he just walked straight to Sthe and they walked out of the school gate.

The End

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Tell us what you think: If you were Sandile and Lo tried to explain, would you take her back?