I have lost yet again
Broken pieces of my heart
have broken yet again.
I try to scream, but…
my lungs fail me
I try to cry, but…
my tears disappoint me.

Beating myself against the
ground will help
but I don’t know where to start.
Banging my head against the
wall seems like an option
but I lack courage to do so.
I have lost one too many
but I still lose yet again.

The well of my tears
is dry like the Kalahari.
I have lost all my strength to express
my emotions.
My heart is heavy with agony,
My mind is full of misery,
My spirit is ruined by this pain.


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