When I caught a glimpse of you.
I thought, wow, you could be my friend.
Visitation days of you going up and down.
You caught feelings.
I could give you an honest answer, told I could try.

I have been trying since then with my actions.
Bought you presents to appease your heart.
Sacrificed my time and joy to make you happy.
You always sought validation anywhere.
It was obsession for you.
I taught you to love.

You loved alcohol more than me.
You sacrificed me for your friends.
Now that you are in the cold pit alone?
I am the one you come running to.
When you lost everything,
I was your confidant that held your hand.

Now I am torn between ending it all and giving you a chance.
I wish I had somebody to tell me it’s worth it.
But nothing is worth it when it’s one sided.
What do you do when the love of your life is an addict.
She refused to be helped.
Her favourite hobby is to be intoxicated.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth.
or in my heart
because when
I think about

I’ll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober.

I’m drunk on the
memory of you.
‘Cause teardrops stroll around my heart.
This disease struck me.
Like a brick on pavement

Everything was
Then that brick came along.
And with the slightest movement
Destroyed everything.
Your friend took something that was worth more than life for you.
She replaced me with a bottle in your hand.

“Count it
Perfect it
Measure it
Clean it”
The voices say, is she now worth your sleepless nights?
Nope, she is beyond redemption.
My love for you died the minute you drowned yourself in the bottle.

Why can’t I let them go?
They keep repeating.
‘Cause I am not bound by anything.
Letting you go, I am afraid you will commit suicide.
I was your first love and it will be the end of me.

The melody no longer sounds the same.
The food tastes bitter.
I got insomnia and depression
‘Cause I lost the love I had for you.
I roamed around the streets like a madman.
Not knowing what to do.
My heart is telling me it’s enough.
The whispers around me saying, don’t give up on her.
Give her a chance.
Remember the memory you gave her.
The support you showed her in the calamity that faced her before.
Without you she is nothing and I, a lost soul.

I am troubled by the love thats fades away from my soul.
I am angry ‘cause I gave her everything.
I am numb ‘cause I let all others slip away to be with you.
My regret, I should have let you marry your bottle.
After being intoxicated with it, then marry your friend.
‘Cause I died in my heart to show you the true meaning of love.