I sit alone crying and slowly dying day by day.
I had it all, including a girl who could save me from me.
For years I dreamt of the day that we would finally be together.
When that day came, I oozed euphoria.
I had the God-sent angel I dreamed of.
Then ‘BOOM’,
like a shredding tree on an autumn night, I lost it all.
I keep replaying it over and over in my mind,
thinking ‘what if I did this or ‘what if I did that’.
I made a mistake that I can never take back,
all that is left is regret and self-torture.
Death creeps in slowly day by day,
‘I don’t deserve to live’ I tell myself.
I had my chance but I let it slip away.
Now everything is gone.
I would do anything to go back in time,
pay more attention and hold my angel close.
Now she’s gone,
once again I’m lost and don’t know what to do but to perish.
She deeded my 100% but I gave her less than that.
No one to blame but myself.
All is lost I say!
Would I gain everything I lost?
Only God knows