As she was walking through the door. “Don’t go please ” I begged, i felt the tear dropping from my eye.” I can’t imagine life without you” I continued . ” I’m sorry , the situation is not allowing me stay . I have to do this . I’ll miss you so much Thando . Know that I love you and I forever will . Bye ” she said with a low firm voice as if she was thinking , she blew a kiss after and she walked away . That was the last time I was talking to her.

I was deeply hurt . I wanted to ask the universe why was it doing this to me?. I wanted to cry out loud but I couldn’t.It felt like the world has turned against me, like the peace of me was missing by that time. I’m Lelothando Maduna , I’m a lesbian meaning I’m homosexual- i date another girls. I live in a village called khoapa in Matatiele. I only live with my mom in a four rommed house. I’ve been dating with Nwabisa for a year now. I love her wholeheartedly , saying goodbye to her was the most difficult thing . I wanted her to stay a little longer but because of the situation , she and her siblings had to go to Cape town.very far from me.

“Hahaha! Are you sad because of that ugly girl of yous?” Aya my bestfriend said entering in my bedroom.” How many times must I tell you to knock before entering?you ought to respect my home as much as I respect yours” I said furiously ” Nwabisa? she’s the most beautiful girl to me”. She was shocked she had never seen me like this before . “I’m sorry man it won’t happen again let’s take a walk I’ll show you the girls that I was telling you about” I wasn’t interested on those girls she often tell me about. I guess she was right I need a walk to get some fresh air.

“I miss you! I miss you Nwabisa I can’t take it any more. You’ve left the space that no one can fill in my heart”I shouted very loud. I was in the place where I get peace of mind.whenever I missed Nwabisa I’d come to this place and shout everything I feel until I feel better.”Dammn you scared me ” the soft voice said from behind. It was a girl with a bright beautiful eyes. “Sorry , it’s just that I miss her” “what happened?” she asked. I told her everything , how I felt when Nwabisa was going.”You can’t give up on things you love and care about because who knows?maybe one day you’ll get through” I nodded , there was no hope.”it’s hard when you miss someone trust me I know”she smiled “If you miss her it means you were lucky, it means you had someone special in your life , someone worth missing.” she said as she was coming close. I felt butterflies on my stomach but I ignored it. “Why now? Why when my heart fully belongs to her? Why when I’m totally ready to be with her?” I asked .”some questions can’t be answered, I have to go , bye.” “Wait!who are you? I haven’t seen you before.”