You know, sometimes

I just wonder how everything would have been…

I wonder what could have happened when you passed on and I was not around

Maybe by now my mind wouldn’t even go back to the day,

When you had your last breath while we were holding onto you,

Pleading with teary eyes that you shouldn’t close your eyes because the ambulance is yet to arrive.

Maybe if I stayed longer with my friends I would have just came home to be shocked by the news of your passing maybe that could have being better for my sanity

I try to find words to motivate me, words to make me understand that you’re in a better place,

But the only thing that seems to be stuck in my head is that you’re never coming back.

Lol ukufa neh