All my life I lived with this pain
all the time I stayed with this harm
to date, it is still in my veins
my cheerful moment comes for a minute
For the rest, I go back to my pain
this far, no further.
when people just smile genuinely
I just show my teeth and fake it
I know not any other way
I’m not a good person to be with
I’m not fun to hang around with
I’m a complete rude and unfriendly
somedays I laugh lots and regret
others days I overshare and wish not
I guess I’m a just a weird being
my younger days were worse
I couldn’t enjoy kids company
but loved being alone dearly
This far, no further.