I fought so hard to get out of that hole
I fought so hard to escape that room
and when I thought I had finally got out
it came back looking for me
It came back like an abondened child seeking for answers from his parents, wanting to know why didn’t they love him enough to keep him

I fought so hard to get out of that hole
I was in that hole for too long
I tolerated being there for too long, although it hurt at the time but I tried to be strong until he came and asked me if I could let him be my safe place
He asked me to stop holding onto that hole, onto that room
He slowly became my happiness
But how do I tell him that it is back?
How do I begin to tell him that?

I heard its whispers yesterday “you belong to me”
I tried to block the whispers but they only got louder
“You belong to me”
“Come back to me”
“You are mine”
My heart was racing and I answered in fear
“You are not real, leave me alone”
But that was not enough because fear got the best of me
I slowly was dragged back to that hole
I slowly was dragged back to that room
The room of hurt
The room of feeling unloved
The room of feeling worthless
The room of anxiety
The room of being a dissapointment
The room of depression
The room of darkness

I fought so hard to get out of that hole
I fought so hard to get out of that room…