“Heavenly father”
I say with my eyes full of tears.
I’m back at being desperate,
and full of fears.

Feels like a merry go round,
I know I’m back there again.
My knees on the ground justifies that.
I beg…stop the ride,
I’m tired of going in circles.

“Bare with I”
My emotions digging I with a shovel.
“Save I hero” I’m hoping for a
voice to guide I.
Argh who am I fooling…that’s fantasy.

“Not again…Not again” I bet my face
tastes like thee ocean.
I sigh deeply at the end,
Feeling lighter emotionally
But heavier physically.
I just have to prepare for the next round,
Hopefully not again.