I woke up this morning with a huge lump in my throat.

And a very heavy heart that’s empty.

Years have passed since you’ve left this earth.

But I still can’t get used to this.

I never thought that there would be a time where I’ll have to go to the graveyard to wish you a happy mother’s day.

It’s harder than I make it sound.

It’s hard to go and sit next to your grave and say “mommy” and not receiving any response from you.

It just became harder and harder every year.

And the lump in my throat just become bigger and bigger every year.

I pray to God to give me strength.

Cause today I’m feeling very… very weak.

I don’t have any more strength left in my body.

My eyes are red!

But don’t worry mommy you are not going to be alone anymore.

I’m coming to you mommy.

The day you died my heart died.

I’ve been living by the grace of God only.

Cause my heart has stopped beating a long time ago.

8th May 2022