I don’t know it , never experienced it . couldn’t be given because I’m stubborn . a rebel. they don’t understand but I feel it is the greatest feeling on earth . having a shoulder and a chest to cry on . mighty vulnerable . it is nice and more softer than ice . I didn’t want to be pathetic so I let it slide . every person who wants it from me either gets hurt or I . I hate it with my being but I love it with my mind , pretty paradoxical . I know I have it but on the surface I feel like I’m not what others want , I’m a hater .