It’s a Friday afternoon Nombuso is sitting quietly at Sam’s tuck shop. She has a lot on her mind as she recently broke up with her boyfriend after they’ve been together for 4 years and they also have a child together.

She wonders what did she do to be broken down this way surely she deserves more than the life she’s living. As she is sitting quietly she remembers everything that led her here, the whole reason she broke up with her boyfriend! 

A week ago.

‘m so excited to see Xolani this coming Saturday it’s been too long! I hope he won’t mind the surprise hence I have some gifts for him I missed him a lot, let me just pack up and take a taxi.

Just as I arrive, walking towards the door I hear people talking and one of them is a woman okay I thought oh well I think it could be his sister as she usually visits all the time. I take a step further and knock I’m excited to see my man I’ve missed him so bad! He responds by saying come in and I opened the door.

I just can’t… I can’t believe what I see my man with another woman yes he’s been cheating on me but why? He looks at me as if he doesn’t care that I just caught him, okay I decided to turn back and go home. As I leave everything now makes sense as to why he hardly spent time with me. How can he do this to us? To our little family we had created but why? Am I that bad? Was I not good enough for him anymore? These were the questions going through my head.

 
Let me text Xolani right now! I took out my cellphone and texted him… “We are done! Ungaqhubeka naye I hope uzokunika lothanda enghlukekile kuk’nika lona. It’s over Xolani!”

He didn’t even text back I guess he’s too occupied, I feel like my walls are closing in I loved him so much and he knew that.

Present

“Nombusoo!” 
Oh, I didn’t even notice I was daydreaming again haibo! Kanti uthando lunjani bakithi. As I realise that Ayanda is calling me I remember that I have a lot on my mind I need to relax and loosen up a bit. Ayanda is my male bestie he’s always there for me, he gives the best advice well he tries.

He looks at me and says, “Kwenze njani wadonsa ubuso nje yini?” 

I look at him and honestly I feel like crying, I tell him I don’t wanna talk about it, I’m really not okay I tell him. He understands and leans in to hug me. I feel secure for a while he knows how to make me feel better though today my heart feels very heavy. He says whenever you wanna talk about it I’ll always be here and we can talk about it okay? I nodded my head agreeing with him. He smiles and we sit and chat about the good old days when we met after I recently came to stay here in Chatsworth. We chat until I remembered my heart broke and I tell him everything, he snuggles close gives me a hug again and say’s he will never let another man hurt me again.

I just let loose and find comfort in him I cried a lot! I was a mess, he continued to hold me tight and I must say I felt so much at ease. There was this moment when he held my chin up and said “I’ve got you okay? I’ll always be here never forget that” For a moment I got lost in his beautiful brown eyes, oh and his lips moved slowly something happened to me, I saw him in a different way he was absolutely gorgeous! 

Did I mention that he’s tall dark, brown eyes pink lips drop-dead gorgeous smile! Today I saw him this way and I’ve never noticed this because of course he’s my best friend. I wanted to kiss him right there but then I remembered that he’s the only friend I have. I just decided to hold on to him and I just cried harder knowing that I can like him or have him as more than a friend! I mean can I? Ooh he’s too gorgeous and he smells so good! 

I had to bring back myself from dreamland as I’ve been through a breakup and I need to heal. So we sat down chatted he bought some snacks and we decided to go to his place just to chill and watch some movies. He treated me like a queen which always made me wonder why was he single? But then again I just enjoyed his company so much.