May 2017

6 May 2017. Things seem to be okay with Jonas again. I keep leaving my phone lying around so he can check that Christo’s name has disappeared.

Well, okay, I often talk to Nantze 2. But I’m sure Jonas won’t suspect. And honestly, there is nothing romantic going on. Truly. I can swear to that. Nothing for Jonas to be jealous about.

We had an issue with jealousy once, back when we were just engaged.

“Why are you spending so much time with Tefo?” Jonas demanded. Tefo was his best friend, a really nice guy. “Every time I turn round, you two are in some corner whispering together.”

I kissed Jonas playfully. “Nothing for you to be jealous about. Promise,” I said with a smile. But Jonas didn’t smile back.

Instead he got even more upset. “Don’t mess me around, Harmony. If you want to be with Tefo, tell me now and we can break off our engagement. Either you are mine or you are not. I need a faithful fiancé, someone I can trust. So what’s going on?”

And then I got upset too. “You want to know what’s going on? Okay, I’ll tell you what’s going on. Tefo and I are planning a surprise birthday party for you – that’s what we’re whispering about. Now you’ve gone and spoilt the surprise with your silly jealousy! I hope you’re happy!”

Jonas looked ashamed. “I’m so sorry. I just love you so much. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost you! I suppose jealousy is just a natural part of love.”

I wrote in my dairy that night: 7 August 2013. I hope Jonas learned his lesson! I hope that’s the last time he’ll be so jealous! Cos I have always, always been faithful.

What I wrote back in 2013 was still true now in 2017. I have always, always been faithful to Jonas. Even this friendship with Christo, that’s all it was: friendship. Why can’t a man and a woman be good friends without everyone thinking there’s something sexual going on?

Even Nantze was giving me uphill about it.

“What’s going on, Harmony? I don’t get a chance to chat to you in the staffroom any more. Break-time, you and Christo are always holed up in your classroom together. I hope you haven’t forgotten you’re a married woman!”

“Of course not!” I defended myself. “It’s just the Grade 7 workload. I spent just as much time with Miss Motaneko last year.”

“Harmony, if you play with fire, you’re going to get burned!” Nantze warned.

And Angie was blaming me too.

“I asked Christo on a date – just like you and Nantze said I should. But he refused me. He said he was sorry, but he was involved with someone else. It’s you, isn’t it, Harmony?”

“No! Don’t be crazy, Angie. We’re just colleagues. Nothing more!”

31 May 2017. EEEEEKKKKK!!!!!!! The Head wants us to start preparing for the Grade 7 play. I hope Christo has some ideas. I’m no good with this kind of stuff. If I wanted to do plays, I would have gone to Drama School, not Teacher Training College!!!!!!!

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Tell us: Is Jonas right? Is jealousy a natural part of love?