There’s nothing in this world that kills a relationship quicker than mistrust. And there’s nothing more infuriating as unfounded accusations from ‘green-eyed’ people. No, not aliens – but boyfriends who think that every girl out there is not loyal.

If you are about to point fingers and accuse me of something I suggest you first get your facts right! I know I am not perfect – like everyone else I also have my flaws and I don’t expect anyone to turn a blind eye to them. But to be accused of cheating is the lowest blow I’ve ever been dealt.

It makes me feel like some cheap trumpet who cannot keep her skirt down! I don’t know how anybody could even start thinking of me in such a manner. Just the thought of it is hilarious – in fact, if I wasn’t so infuriated I would find it hilarious.

How dare he?

How could he stoop so low? I’ve never felt so humiliated in all my life!

“It’s not that I don’t trust you… I just need to make sure,”

Make sure of what? That I wasn’t the low life tramp of a &!#@% that you make me out to be? That I am not a cheap drunk that you thought I was? That I am not a reckless flirt who cares for nobody but her ego?

I’m so disappointed in Sebastian. After everything we’ve been through I would think he knew me better.

What irks me the most is that he was doing it behind my back. I have no problem with him going through my phone because I have nothing to hide. But to do it with the intension of finding incriminating evidence to attack the one you claim to love, now that is just sick.

Have I done anything to make him distrust me? No. so why is he doing this?

Oh wait, I get it: birds of the same feather…

Noxy! Because I’m friends with her I am now labelled and judged by the things she does. Wow! Can we go back to pre-school, like really!

Thanks Nox, for rocking my little Titanic yacht out of balance.

*(She is the type that never knows where the fun stops. But at least she saw her mistake and apologised this time; usually, getting an apology from her is like sucking blood from a stone.)

But it’s not her fault, she was just a catalyst. Sebastian, my sweet love, has never trusted me and he never will. I am suffering, not only for my sins which I have yet to commit, but for those of the women before me and those I have befriended.

We’ve all been hurt before, he isn’t the first. We were both hurt by people we loved and trusted; I got a double spanking. But that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t trust the ones we are with.

You see, the world has its own ideas about what Zinzi is and what she is not. Everyone feels that they can add their two cent’s worth of opinion about what I am – but one thing I am not, is a cheater.

I am a one man woman, and that’s it! And I will lose a wink of sleep trying to prove myself to anyone!

ZZ xxx

Dish it: Have you been accused of cheating? Sucks right? How did you feel and how did you fix it?

The Diary of Zinzi Zwane