He won’t take my calls! Sebastian is bloody ignoring me. I called him just now and it just rings and rings. He’s off this weekend, I know he is and he’s not busy or anything. I know I screwed up but I’ve apologized countless times.
I’m not one to beg and this pleading business is just not my style. I’m the one who usually ignores the guy not the other way around. And this guy not only has me calling him 24/7 but now he’s got me leaving voicemails, sending text messages and posting ridiculous messages on his Facebook page.
He’s got me stooping to a new kind of low and I don’t grovel.
I mean I would understand if he was busy or something but he’s not. He responds to his posts and he does go online and stays on for hours on end, he just doesn’t wanna talk to me. I understood before when the wound was still fresh but now it’s just getting freakin annoying.
I messed up. I went out with Robbie on Saturday night and Sebastian wasn’t too pleased. It’s not like I didn’t tell him or I did something with Robbie. I just went out and hung out with Robbie and his friends. This Sebastian guy is bloody moody.
He doesn’t understand how important it is not to let people see that you’re down and out because that gives them power over your life. I believe that by meeting Robbie and his friends, I took my power back. Now he knows that he has no chance in hell and that I’m better off without the glam life I used to live and the rest of my sorry excuses for friends that I used to keep.
Sebastian doesn’t agree. He reckons I still have feelings for Robbie and that’s why I went out with him. I thought I did but seeing him again made me realise that I don’t. I’m over him and I wouldn’t have known that if I wouldn’t have gone out with him. I could still be pining over the arse.
Robbie knows I’m with Sebastian because all I could talk about was Sebastian and Tee. Ow gawd! Men are exhausting. I really don’t need this tension right now. I should be stress-free and focusing on my exams. Now I’m just sitting here, boiling mad and typing out a stupid blog just so I can get this frustration out.
Was I wrong? Why am I paying for this? Does anybody understand me at all?
ZZ xxx