Mom and dad just had another fight. I don’t know what brought this fight on and I don’t know what it was about. I heard mom throwing her phone on the wall, that’s the 4th one this year. The woman has a temper. I wonder how dad puts up with her. Dad is chilled, cool, and he never shouts. He’s fun and funny, and treats me like an adult. Mum doesn’t give a damn. She’s the complete opposite. I can’t even tell her about Sebastian and our date on Friday. She’ll freak.

I don’t even know why she wanted us here, Sim loves it though. He’s just a nerd caught up in his own little 12year old life. All he ever does is annoy me and side with mom. I wonder if he misses dad, I think I’m the only one who misses him.

Gawd, mom is crying again. I don’t know why she even bothers putting up these charades. Everyone knows she doesn’t care about dad, never has really. I think she only married him for his money and then she trapped him by getting pregnant with me. That’s why she doesn’t love me; that’s why she’s so indifferent when it comes to me. I don’t think I was planned, I think I just happened, like an accident. Dad sure was happy I’m sure, but mom, I think she hated me from conception. How else can you explain the way she treats me? I can never do anything right in her eyes. I’m a spoilt little rich girl. I whine and moan and don’t care about anybody else but me. I’m a selfish brat. That’s what she says.

But when it comes to Simphiwe then it’s a different story. Ooh, he’s so cute. Wow, he’s so smart! He’s gonna be the one to discover the cure for AIDS. He’s the perfect child and he gets everything he wants. I on the other hand must fight, plead and beg to get anything.

Like when I wanted a Tablet; that started World War 3. She didn’t see the reason why I needed one.

I had to fight tooth and nail for it. First she said I don’t need it, then she said it’s a waste of money, like since when has money ever been an issue? Then she put down conditions for me. First I had to pass Matric. Then I had to play nice to Sim, The list was endless. All her conditions were unreasonable. I mean if I had to wait till the end of the year to get it then I might as well just forget it. It would be out-dated by then. Any ways, she just hates me.

Sim is the love child. If he didn’t look like dad I’d swear he wasn’t his. But then again he’s got dad’s super brains. They’re geniuses when it comes to numbers. Dad’s and investor and mom is a writer. She’s no Daniel Steel or anything but she does O.K. She’s had 2best sellers and it’s been dry ever since. That was 5years ago.

I’ve been passing time waiting for Sebastian to call. The waiting is driving me crazy. Why hasn’t he called? I should’ve taken his number. Maybe he lost interest or was just amusing me. He’s a barman and gets to pick and choose which girl he wants when they walk through his doors. They probably throw themselves at him, I know I would have. I don’t want to think like this. I’m getting edgy. I think I’ll secretly borrow a glass of wine.

ZZ xxx