Is it not ironic how when someone is hurting you they hardly ever notice? They just live their lives unperturbed by the chaos and confusion they cause. They are simply unaware of the hearts that they are breaking; or rather they deliberately turn a blind eye to the pain they cause others. What’s even more ironic about it is the fact that the more they hurt you, the more you believe that there is hope for the two of you. You hold on to memories that were created in moments of bliss to conceal the pains of the present moments. That’s the irony of being in love.

I wish I knew why Sebastian was acting up. I mean this is totally uncool. How do you explain it when your boyfriend is not answering your calls and acting all strange?

I’ve been trying to call him the whole bloody weekend to no avail. The closest I got to him was through his friend, Andrew, who told me that he couldn’t answer the phone, he promised to tell him to call me. And I am still waiting for that call even now. Mxm!

This makes me feel like he is avoiding me, or he is with someone else. Yea! That’s the reason I could come up with to justify his antics.

Don’t get me wrong – I am neither jealous nor insecure (well, that’s what I believe). But things that some girls do to snatch your man away from you – UNBELIEVABLE. If a friend of mine I trusted, like Noxy, couldn’t wait a few months for me to be away to start dating Robbie; can you imagine how fast would a stranger strike? Many girls would do anything to have Sebastian as theirs, they won’t even bat an eye or think twice before they snatch him right under my nose.

Am I wrong to be feeling this way? Or just maybe it is true that “where there is love, there is pain”. So this hell of a depressing emotion that I am going through right now might just be love?

ZZ xxx