I never thought I’d ever spent 48 sleepless hours in my life. In fact, if anyone had told me that I’d have to cross-night for two consecutive nights I would’ve simply laughed at them and said: “Stop being silly,”

But well, now, this is my reality: no more beauty sleep for me. A lot of things have been happening all at once; Tee being admitted in hospital last week (but she’s out now), and the never-ending tests and assignments. My life has been reduced to a mind-numbing routine; if I’m not studying I’m writing. If I’m not writing a test I’m doing an assignment.

It just gets too much to handle at times. If I don’t suffer a mental breakdown it will be a miracle. I mean, I’m in the early stages of amnesia – I forget crucial stuff. For instance, the other day mom said I should go fetch Sim from school, and it completely escaped my mind. Mom is still on my case for that. Sim says he won’t speak to me unless I take him and his “girlfriend” out on a date. Imagine!

Sebastian, on the other hand, is complaining that I haven’t really made time for him since we fixed things.

“Oh! So when she fixes things with Sebastian she doesn’t tell us? But when things go sour for them she comes crying to us,” this must be going through your mind as you read this entry.

But that’s hardly the case!

I just wanted to make sure that things are really fixed before I tell anyone. Well, now I’m quite sure that things are going fine between us – we speak more often and we fight and argue less. I guess we’ve learn to appreciate each other more now. You know what they say, it’s always better the second time. The timing couldn’t have been better than it is, it’s spring. I really cannot wait for the ten-day holiday in October. Aside from it being a much-needed breather, it will also afford me time to spend time with Sebastian on the beach.

Well, that’s if dad doesn’t spoil these plans. Ever since he came to help when I was moving in, we’ve been on speaking terms and things have been going just fine. We take everything step by step, trying to get the bond and trust between us tight again.

But he just decided to take an ambitious giant step and invited me for the holidays. Obviously, I turned him down. It’s too early. I still have to adapt to the fact that I’m sharing a dad. But he’s not willing to back down. His promises are getting tempting by the minute – it remains only a matter of time to see how long I might be able to resist.

Who knows I might even twist his hand and me and Sebastian can go to P.E. together. He can still surf there and maybe he and my dad can even go fishing together.

If things go my way, this will be the best holiday of my life… I’ll forget about everything and just have the time of my life with the two men in my life.

ZZ xxx

Dish it: what are your plans for the spring holidays?