My alarm rang. It jolted me and I woke up confused from by my dream; it felt like it was really happening. I got up, sweaty and shaking because of how traumatized I was, then I headed for the shower. After some time, there was a white Corsa parked outside the campus yard. Yes, it was my boyfriend who was eight years older than me.

He worked as a politician and also worked at the local municipality, his name was Lesego. He was a father to an eight-year-old daughter, whose mother was an irresponsible alcoholic whom Lesego broke up with when she was four. Well, that’s what Lesego told me, even though it was hard to believe. The thing is, I never loved him but I was afraid to tell him to back off. No one wants to be treated harshly by someone who claims to love them.

I got in the car and he told me he had some tickets for a vacation at Sun City, so I went to pack an overnight bag then got back to the car. It was our first official date. We had started being lovers two days ago when told me those things about his ex, but I wasn’t myself after the things I heard about him. Our journey to Sun City was short; the drive from Mankwe Campus to Sun City is close to 30 minutes.

We got there and it was the most beautiful place you can imagine. I had never been to Sun City or on any vacation before. Maybe if my dad was still alive, I would have been here several times. In the background, in my thoughts, my favourite song was playing on repeat- XO by Beyoncé? I was still lost in my thoughts while singing along with the song.

He opened the door for me. I took my overnight bag and followed him to our room. It was awesome. I dropped my overnight bag, then we went to play some games in the casino. It was cute, I tell you.

Drinks were on him. No, everything was on him. There came time to go to sleep. We had bumped into his mom and she asked him to drop her off, so I decided to go to sleep. I got to our room and locked myself in, took one of his cigarettes and smoked it. I was chemically charged, and I fell asleep. Before I knew it, my phone rang and it was him asking me to open for him. We drifted to a land of fantasy after my first unprotected intimacy.

I woke up feeling a bit shy so I headed for the shower before he woke up. I was done in no time, even though I still felt dirty. He finished bathing and it was time to go back to campus. When I got there, my friend Warona whom I had only met that semester but was closer than kin, told me a very understanding man driving a black Audi was looking for me. I assumed it was Lloyd.

I got to my room and finished my assignments before midday. My lectures were starting from that time till sometime after 4 p.m. By the grace of the God I did finish and went to the library afterwards. My classes were over, so I went to the cafeteria to get something to eat even though food wasn’t my closest friend. I got myself a plate and thought of going to pass by the gate to see if Lloyd hadn’t me a thing or two.

As I approached, the security guard shouted for someone who was outside the campus. I got there only to find Lloyd parked next to the gate, so it must be that the security guard was shouting for him. I asked the security guard to stay there for at least 15 minutes and I got in the car.

Lloyd was that BEE friend of mine I was used to. He was some kind of a pervert. He explained to me that his wife found out about us and she threatened to get a divorce, and for that I was to blame. Well, I am not a home-wrecker, I am just a mistress and I am not going to let Lloyd bully me. I opened the door and got out, then I went straight to my room and got on my bed.

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