Five days later, I am trying to find out about the guy that said he knows me when I had no idea who he was. I am angry and I just want to go to his place and finish him off once and for all. He is the reason I am feeling like this: why did he call me? That’s how little he thinks of me?

This is the fruit we reap for being too nice and warm, this is what people think of you when you are sweet and quiet. And this is what people do when you always try to distance yourself from fights and trouble. They take you for a fool that doesn’t know how to be in one.

I have to kill the guy to teach people a lesson, but before I could do that, I called Jeaneth, our best friend, actually Trudy’s best friend that became my friend as well. She was my confidant.

“Zweli…” she answered my call.

“Heey Jay!” that’s what I called her. “Are you back yet from school?” I continued.

“Yes… what’s wrong?” she knew I was down from my voice.

“I need someone to talk to…” a punching bag for that matter.

She agreed to taking just a few of my punches, she is a good listener. I say this to make you aware of why I talk to her.

I didn’t know where to start with Jay, so I asked her: “Where do I start?”

“From the beginning, Zweli.” I could see in her eyes how frightened she was to see me in the state I was in.

“Oh well, I admit that you win. I am hurting now that the anger is gone. I miss my girlfriend, and I have some evil creeping in on me. When I feel like this, I am not sure what am I capable of. I found out about Lebohang Glenten Masilela. He is in grade 12A and he’s been dating my girl for a while now. I am going to kill him, Jay…”

“No Zweli, you are killing nobody. And take that thought out of your system,” she begged me. “How on earth did you find out this information? You are not stalking the guy are you Zweli?”

I felt my eyes sting like hell and if I said one more word right then, I would cry. I couldn’t do that. I won’t be so weak over a stupid girl that gave me a stupid heartache. I kept quiet for a moment.

“I love her Jay.” I said in a breaking voice of sorrow I could not help. “How do I move on without her in my life? I only know how to love her. Is there any better, brighter day for me moving forward?” I kept asking Jeaneth as if she was a goddess.

We were at a street corner sitting on the wheels of an abandoned truck trailer. I poured my heart out to her and she made me feel better afterwards.

“Don’t go after her. She’s moved on and she’s happy with her decision. Give yourself time to heal and move on.” Jay told me.

As we spoke, there appeared Thabi and her sister Thuli. This needs for me to go back a little for you to know who they are, and how they fit into this picture.

Trudy was my main chick and everyone knew that in the hood. We were one of the best couples around the town. I didn’t do or think about anything that would make her cry. This was until she went to visit her family somewhere. She met someone there and she wasn’t too good at hiding it. When I asked her about it, she accused me of being controlling and insecure. I thought maybe she was right, but then few days later she tried to break up with the guy and he rearranged her beautiful face.

When I asked her about it, she came clean but I reacted badly because I was controlling and insecure when I was hurting. Eventually, we forgot about it and went back to our jolly happy love life. A few months later, she woke up one morning to break up with me out of the blue. Again, we were able to mend things.

But it wasn’t gonna be the same again. I had to turn on my manly feature so I found a chick from church named Sizi to fuck around with, but we both felt guilty about it, so we stopped.

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Tell us: What do you think of what Zweli did? Do you think cheating on each other can fix things?