14th February

Precious Diary

I managed to get home safely. Today was awesome. I can’t describe it to you. All I can say is it was awesome. I felt pleasure within and without me, all over my body. Jack is good. He is so, so, so good. And I love him. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.

I hope Mum and Dad never find out though. But I am intrigued by what happened tonight I don’t think I want to stop now. And I did enjoy it. I’m gonna go all in and enjoy myself. I aint hurting anyone. It’s my body and I choose what to do with it. So help me GOD. Gotta go to bed before family gets in. Adieu.

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June 15th

Precious Diary,

I had a lengthy chat with Jack today. We talked about our future just like we’ve been doing for some time now.

Months had passed. Day after day, Jack and I have gotten even closer. I kept becoming a good liar as well. I always forged stories just to escape into his arms. School was soon over and during the period I was waiting for my results, my parents had to travel for a while, leaving Keith and me behind.

This gave me ample time to have fun with Jack. The excuse to Keith was always the same. “I’m off to Linda’s place”. I kept loving him as each day passed by. We started making plans for the future. He was so ambitious. My aim was to become a pediatrician someday. Jack on the other hand said he hoped to venture into banking.

“You know, something baffles me. Can I ask?”

“Sure,” I replied.

“If distance separates us would anything change? As in will something bad happen to the love that we share?”

I looked into his eyes and I could sense fear in his voice and his eyes for the first time.

“Jay, why that question? Are you planning on going somewhere?”

“No not that. But since we are planning for our future we have to factor in certain circumstances that might cross our paths. I will never leave you, I promise. In fact, I can’t even do it. I don’t think I can survive without you by my side. I just want you to know that, OK?”

“OK love. Please I don’t think I can survive without you. I must confess, I have become so attached to you I sometimes feel like opening up to tell my parents about us but because I can’t risk the danger of losing you, I’ll coil back into my shell.”

“It’s OK dear. I understand. It’s almost eve. You have to get going.”

Sometimes, the statement he makes scares me. I sense it somewhere within that he might leave me here alone but I just don’t have the courage to ask him about it. Linda thinks I shouldn’t as well. So I have decided to keep my cool.

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June 16

Precious Diary,

I noticed some changes in my body. I realized that I had put on some weight and I thought that was funny since I had not been eating well of late. I decided to tell Linda about it since she was a bit older than I am. Jack was out of town.

“How long has it been since you noticed these changes?”

“Well, I think a week or two.”

She made me stand and looked at me critically by examining my palms and my eyes.

“Pee. I honestly pray that this is not the case but… Please, I’m about to ask a question. Please answer me truthfully. When was the last time you had your monthly flow?”

“Linda!” I exclaimed. I can’t be pregnant!!! Please don’t tell me I’m pregnant. It just can’t be possible! You know my parents are ministers of the gospel! They will kill me Lindy! They will skin me alive!”

“Call down Pearline. Calm down. We have to dot every “I” and cross every t”” to get this right. I have a doctor friend we can go and see. I’m sure he can help us figure out the mystery. Please calm down. All will be well. We have to solve this problem before your parents return.”

“Yes, yes, yes, we have to.” I stammered.

It was just at this point that I realized that Jack never crossed my mind. I was in deep waters and had to think and act fast. One word came to mind. Abortion! I can’t keep an unwanted pregnancy. I have my career to pursue. A thought just crossed my mind. Then why indulge yourself in such an act?

At this point, tears filled my eyes as we sat quietly in a cab on our way to the hospital. Linda stared at me and wiped away the tear which descended beneath my right eye. My heart missed a beat when she said “We are here. Calm down dear”.

While we waited for the results, Linda tried her possible best to cheer me up but I didn’t budge. I placed my head on her shoulder to take a shot nap. She stroke my hair softly like a big sis would. I love her so much, my bestie.

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Tell us what you think: Do you think Pearl is pregnant? What do you think she will do?