Good news, I have finally come up with the name of the book I want to write. I decided to name it after my late grandfather’s favourite word: “Nakanjani”. I will, however, explain the meaning as time goes, but this is not a tribute kind of thing.

The word relates a lot to what I have written in the book. I recently went online to research about how many pages a book should be, and shocker, I am nowhere close to the number. It feels like I have already written about everything though, but what is encouraging is that I started the journey for a reason, and I pray that the Lord give me the wisdom to finish what I have already written.

Do forgive me if this gets a bit confusing, though, I am currently writing everything that is coming to mind.

**********

In the beginning of this year, I felt a bit of anxiety, and it was not a nice feeling at all. I think bring 27 years is catching up with me. How did the years go so fast? Sometimes I wonder about the things I have achieved in the past couple of years. As a person, sometimes you wish you could do a number of things. But, before you even know it, years have gone by, and this causes one to be anxious. It is even so bad that, I even worry about the simplest of things like the weather.

Trust me, I am not exaggerating things. Life is not a movie scene, aging is real. Sometimes we go through really tormenting things that we are afraid of explaining, things like having a real bad day at work. You end up feeling like opening up to someone about it just because you feel they might say it is like that for everyone, but you eventually keep it to yourself because you do not want to be a nagger.

A lot of the things that seem small always come to haunt us at a later stage. I am sure you have heard people saying that the things you keep inside have a weird way of bursting out, and when they do, people start pointing fingers at you as the wrong person. But I understand that we are not moody, it is just that we sometimes do not want to talk.

Believe me, if you had a bad day, try confiding in someone. If you failed a test, try opening up about it, and maybe you might get assistance instead of feeling bad about it.

**********

My dad likes soul music, so I also grew up loving the same genre of music. From a young age, I would sing “let’s kiss and say goodbye” with a lot of passion, as if I knew what the lyrics of those songs meant. To date, I sometimes wonder why I love that music so much, whilst people my age are into hip hop and house music. It even gets worse when the volume of the music is playing high, then I become like a foreigner in some other country.

Some of us adapt easily to the conditions we group up in, but I have learnt to be flexible so I can learn new things from other environments I come across. Adopting to some conditions is another thing, but I would rather put things together and come up with a solution that works for me, even if it makes me someone who is always left out on what some people consider to be sophisticated.

More or less, I would rather be alone, watching a movie at home, whilst others are having the night of their lives on a Friday night. The fact that we only live once has always inspired me, hence I have never let a day go to waste. Imagine trying to figure out what I did at night with a hangover the following day, busy trying to put the puzzle back together. Life is about doing what works for you, and not about what makes you good to others.

The same applies with our profound forex and bitcoin friends. To be frank, trading has worked good for some people, and it is evidenced by the cars and expensive clothes they have. But, for me it is like a maths literacy student writing a pure maths exam paper. It is really not happening, and what is worse for me is hearing stories about investments that are fly by night.

In the end, we need to know that not everything that works for other people will work for everyone else. We just need to pick our talents wisely, not based on fashion.

***

Tell us: What are your talents, and what are you doing to use them for your benefit?