I am shopworn of looking in the mirror and detesting what I see.
The ugly me.
Scars all over my body,
Scars that are so unbearable in my spirit
My heart and soul.
You mangled me
You pulverised me
You scourged me
I started losing the voice of my soul
I lost the meaning of life
I would always soundlessly count the droplets of my tears.
I would silently cry when no one’s there.
I didn’t feel the light of the day
The affectionateness of night tormented me
I lost the meanings which mattered.
“I am preparing you for the outcomes of adulthood,” he would say.
I took you as my father.
I respected you like an uncle.
I thought you would bolster me, brother.
Why did you make me shattered to the core, cuz?
My spirit and soul tattered!
I used to bite my tongue
And hold my breath
I sat quietly and let you “enjoy me”.
I let you push me past a breaking point.
I guess I forgot I had a choice
You held me down but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
NOW HEAR MY VOICE FATHER!
HEAR THAT SOUND UNCLE!
I AM STRONGER NOW BROTHER!
BECAUSE I’VE GOT THE ROAR OF A LION
MY DEAR COUSIN!
AND I AM DANCING THROUGH THE FIRE!
I AM A FIGHTER!
I AM A CHAMPION!
Get ready because I’ve heard enough