I try to live in each day
but I can’t get you out of my mind,
and more so my heart.
No one ever leaves my heart,
but you have made a special imprint
only my son had done that before you.

So I blueprint a plan to better myself,
sometimes straying in different directions
I just always seem to go off path,
no matter the situation.
I know that you saw good in me,
better than I saw in myself,
I got put to the test,
Unaware,
but I did the best I could,
with the knowledge I had at that time.

I’m sorry if I let you down,
I’m sorry I didn’t see,
who I believe you to be,
before.
Maybe I wasn’t supposed to