Where were you…father?
When I needed you
When mom needed you
When my brother needed you
When I actually took my life
When everything went wrong
When nothing seemed to fall in place

Where were you… father?
When I needed you
When your support could change a lot
When my school work wasn’t going as planned
When my health showed me flames
When I thought death was the only way out
When no medication seemed to work nor help
When I failed

Where were you… father?
When mom needed you
When she was unemployed
When she had to sell her body, just to feed us
When she was ill and weak
When all her friends backstabbed her
When the whole family blamed and hated her
When our school fees were too much of a burden

Where were you…father?
When my brother needed you
When he thought drugs, alcohol and weed healed pain
When he thought education was useless
When he saw sex as his goal in every relationship
When his friends left him
When the teachers banned him from class
When drugs almost took his life
When he was on his deathbed

Where were you…father?
When everything went wrong
When my brother passed away
When there was no burial society nor stokvel for the funeral
When we had to put him inside a cheap coffin, like a dog
When we just had to let go of the coffin
When we had to survive without him

Where were you….father?
When nothing seemed to fall into place
When I became suicidal
When I had to hustle for food
When I became a prostitute, just for money
When I couldn’t get my ID book because of my surname
When mom got old and was taken away
When I was left alone
When nobody was there to talk me out of taking my life
When I took my life
Where were you…father?