It didn’t matter how handsome you were
Or how ignorant you were
It didn’t matter that you hardly told me you loved me
How you phrased the heart-ripping things you said to me
It didn’t matter that we made a cute couple
Or how I tried to keep us, “us”
But it mattered how you just weren’t there for me
How I felt when I was with you
Unhappy and unloved
Undeserving and worthless
And how I just couldn’t be ME
What really mattered was that I search for happiness inside of me